Right now, I feel as though I have over-committed and under-delivered on about 3,000,000 things. This is a recurring habit in my life. I want to say “yes” to everything that comes my way, and then I end up buckling under the weight of it all. I’m really bad at saying “no;” I’m terrible at even saying, “sure, but can it wait until tomorrow?”
Does anyone else deal with this?
Conversationally, this is the recent advice I’ve recieved:
“You just have to take it to God and trust Him to change it in you.”
That is a hard thing for me. I can’t just trust God to change me. I want to change me. I want to fix my problems.
How do you deal with this “trust” thing?
I do this same thing. Do you think it could maybe not be a trust issue as much as a fear issue? fear that you will let people down. fear that you are not good enough and want to prove that you can take it all on? fear that your life needs more and you take it on yourself to fix what you feel is lacking? Now that I think about it maybe it is a matter of trust.
I kind of feel like maybe I’ve been part of the “take it to God and let Him change you” issue… but really when I think about it, I have the same problem. And when I pray about that, I think that the issue for me is that I don’t spend enough time with the HS to know his voice well enough to hear what I should actually be doing. So then there’s those snap decisions, and big decisions, I have to make, but I can’t hear him tell me what to do because I don’t recognize his advice.
Dang it… I gotta go pray.
trust – can’t have intimacy w/out trust. for me, trusting God is an incremental development process. i’ve become really happy w the incremental development plan bc for me, it seems to be more lasting & sustainable. still working on it & letting Him work in me, but i have hope bc i see what He’s done so far.
overcommitted – take it or leave it (whatever its worth from a 40 yr old woman w 3 smallish kids & a few irons in the fire): stay true to the design of your Creator, everything else can be expendable, generally.